KINDNESS, ANCIENT HISTORY & LINKS TO THE PAST

We have been on the road now for not quite a week. The boys have been troopers. We are all still struggling somewhat with the time change. Wanting to sleep mid afternoon but then waking at 1am and unable to get back to sleep. It will right itself soon enough.

We spent the first part of our journey in the Cotswold countryside of England. Our wonderful and gracious host welcomed us warmly. Karen is a beautiful soul who so generously gives of herself. She has unlimited energy, is vibrant and fun. The cottage, the villages’ old forgery, had us time travelling back hundreds of years.

THANK YOU to Karen and her two trusty sidekicks, Guinness and Libby. You gave us an enriching experience and made us feel so loved.

The country side is rolling and beautiful, dotted with sheep making for a sharp contrast to the green fields. The old stone buildings seem to whisper secrets of the past. The people have been friendly, courteous and helpful.

Driving, SERIOUSLY STRESSFUL. I think I am still spinning from all the round a bouts. The streets are crazy narrow and it is not uncommon to have to back up to let oncoming traffic pass. We happily returned our rental and jumped on the National Express bus system. The bus drivers are some of the strongest willed and crazy individuals I think I will come across. HUGE buses to maneuver through alley like streets with cars, pedestrians and cyclists who all seem to be navigating on blind faith.

There is so much history here. Stonehenge dating back to 2500BC, Roman Villas that built a heated floor back in the 800s. We visited the church where my Great Great Grandparents are buried. Was a good feeling to be around my ancestors. Felt connected in a strange yet significant way. Was good for the boys to see this connection to the past. The church where they are laid to rest was built in 802AD. Just standing in this building felt momentous.

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We are now in Cambridge staying at a friends place.

BUNCHES OF THANKS to Michelle and Adrain. The evening out in Cambridge was brilliant. Your home is cozy and the art work particularly enjoyable. Your generosity and kindness is very much appreciated.

Cambridge is bustling. The winding river with its footpaths, bike paths, cobbled streets and tall centuries old building. Very easy navigation for cyclists and pedestrians. We could learn a lot from their city planners. There are even cows grazing in the grassy parks downtown. A late night walk was wonderful and the streets were still buzzing with life.

The cyclists definitely own the roads here. More bikes than vehicles for sure. The bike racks are stacked two high in some cases. Most cyclists don’t even seem to look before heading out to mingle with the buses or cars. Organized chaos, like a choreographed dance. Never sure who is in the lead but having faith that someone is always a step ahead. Mesmerizing to watch.

The world is a very different place than even 10 years ago. Everyone is plugged in and you are expected to be as well. I have said many times that I would go back to a world without internet in a heartbeat. I still feel the same. But yet, here I am writing a blog. The irony of this is not lost on me. The world is not going to change, so I have to find my own balance in the cyberchaos.

We brought one iPad for staying connected. Seems one is not enough. Kids need it for homework with math and blogging. We need it for research and booking things from train tickets to lodgings. It has only been a week and everything we read and everyone we talk to, is telling us to book online. It is cheaper, which turns out to be frustratingly true. So even if we wanted to purchase at the the rail station (on a computer kiosk I might add), it would cost another $10 to $20 than the online cost.

So when arrived just prior to our trains departure to pick up our tickets -from the computer kiosk- it did not recognize our reference number. When we did find someone to talk to, he was still scratching his head when we stepped on the train with no printed ticket. We were told to resolve the matter at the station of our destination. Where they could not resolve it either!

So this cyber world we live in makes my head spin at times. Would probably be easier to navigate if we were tech savvy. Should have taken a course on internet travelling tips prior to leaving. Maybe then we would have been more efficient navigating the tech world. Then again, maybe not. I am thankful that we only have 1 device. This in itself limits the time and effort we put into being plugged in.

It has been interesting travelling with the boys. They have managed incredibly well with the time change. The transition from home to the unknown has been very gentle. England is preparing us for the even further chaos that will await us in India and SE Asia. The boys are enjoying the adventure. Little complaining when we ask them to wake too early or to walk a little faster. All the camping, skiing, hiking, road trips and even the many days of biking to school have helped prepare them for this 4 months of travel. They are resilient and adaptable. Love them more than the English love their fish and chips.

We woke early and walked the quiet streets of Cambridge in a gentle drizzle, to get the 0715 train to London. So as I type, the movement of the train gently vibrates my entire being. The continuous hypnotic clicking of the wheels on the track are like a form of meditation. I have always loved train travel and looked forward to sharing this experience with my kids since we first decided to make this trip happen. So here we are. The first of many train trips to come.

The train whistle blows. A gentle reminder that it is time to log out and truly experience the world. To trance out with my kids as we watch England pass outside. For the only way to truly embrace life, is to be living it.

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WITH LOVE

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We are now sitting in the Vancouver airport waiting for our flight to London. Boys are bursting with excitement. I have those butterflies that often come with being in an airport.
It was a busy week getting our lives packed into 4 carry on backpacks. Sadly the monkey was having a dance party causing a few nights of lost sleep. But she is quiet now we are more than ready for our journey.
The only niggling feeling I have is for my folks. I shed a few tears after they dropped us off at the ferries the other day. They have health issues that often accompany those who enter into their 80s. They are doing quite well and aging with grace. There is however, always the possibility of the unexpected. The years have added up for them and every day is a gift.

This one is for you Mom and Dad.

THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING.

I would not be where I am today if it were not for you. Your love and encouragement has been unconditional. We have not always agreed on things and at times the road was rocky. But your love never wavered. I may not have always listened, but I was always watching. Thank you for being great role models.

Thank you for always believing in me.

It is said that one can not truly understand a parents’ love until you become one youself. Having children of my own, only now can I know how a heart can be transformed. At times the love is so intense that I feel like my heart will burst.

Having the responsibility of nurturing my own children I can appreciate just how difficult this can be. Raising children to be a productive member of society is no easy thing. Many times I wonder if I am polluting their minds more than I am promoting growth and independence?

I tested my Mom and Dad on numerous occasion. I can only hope that my own children will not give me as many grey hair as myself and my brothers caused for our parents. Yes brothers, I will not take blame for all Mom and Dad’s grey hair or lack there of. Remember, you were my role models growing up ;o)

Last time I was in Europe was in 1991. I was on a 6 month trip with a girlfriend. She left to go back home after 2 months and I kept travelling. Due to some unexpected events and lack of easily available communication (there was no internet and at times, no phone lines too), my folks became concerned and thought something adverse had happened. I had just arrived in Budapest after being in the mountains of former Yugoslavia and I had this strong urge to phone my folks. I contacted them just hours before my Father and brother were about to board a plane to Paris. Coincidently they had Interpol looking for me as well. A scary time for my folks.

They worried then, and they worry now. It is part of being a parent. As soon as you have children your heart is now forever walking outside of your body.

Mom and Dad, keep your worry in check. The world can be a big scary place or a playground for learning. We will be smart and be safe.

“There are only two lasting bequests that we can hope to give our children. One of these is roots, the other, wings.”

Johann Wolfgang Von Goeth

Thank you for the roots to keep me grounded and the wings to let me fly.

MUCH LOVE TO YOU TODAY AND EVERYDAY.

 

 

DREAM BELIEVE ACHIEVE

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My Hubby and I are about to take our two boys on an around the world journey. Europe, India and South East Asia. Lots of places to explore in only 4 months. But we are a family inspired by adventure and we are up for the challenge.

BK (Before Kids) we travelled fairly extensively. Then we embarked on our biggest, most challenging and most rewarding journey ever…. children. Many things changed, but we never lost our desire to travel. We have been dreaming of travelling with our boys for 5 years now.

So many thoughts could have got in our way. Can we afford it? What about work? What about the house? When would be the perfect ages? Is the world safe?

Those questions only motivated us to make it happen. To believe.

First I want to acknowledge just how privileged we are. We were born into privileged families, in privileged communities, in a privileged country. We are white and middle class. This dream did not mean we had to sacrifice. We had to make choices. Choices that so many do not have the pleasure to make just because they were born into not so fortunate circumstances. I want my boys to ground themselves in gratitude. To be aware to just how privileged they are, and to promote change so one day every one can make choices instead of sacrifices. To honor diversity and support those who are less fortunate.

Some may say I use and abuse my privilege because I choose to travel. Am I selfish?  Yeah I am. I still have much learning to do, and I crave personal satisfaction. My desire to travel comes from a deep inner place. I love the adventure, the unknown.

Travelling made me the person I am today. My parents always took me on camping trips in the summer. I celebrated my 13th birthday in Mexico. Grade 12 was my first real adventure with a whirl wind trip to Europe. Then at age 19, against many peoples’ advice, I made a choice. I left university, and went travelling.

That 6 month trip, 27 years ago, changed my life drastically. No amount of schooling could have taught more about the world, the people who we share it with and how to navigate everyday life. More than anything though, travelling encouraged personal growth and discovery.

I am thankful I can give this gift to my children. Promote curiosity, independence, self discovery, belief in humanity and diversity.

Money? Saving aeroplan points for the last 5 years has covered all our flights. We make good incomes and made some choices of how to spend our earnings. We have enough to cover our costs. And if we fall short, we have jobs to came back to.

House? Find someone to move in. Easily done and we are grateful.

Work? Husband is seasonal so winter is his time off.  I was willing to walk away from my position but my leave was granted. Again I am grateful.

Kids are the perfect ages. 10 and 13. Old enough to understand. Young enough to still think their parents are made from cool stuff.

But the world has so many dangers? So does driving in my car. I am not naive to what is happening in the world. But I choose to still live. I refuse to let media frighten me and let fear hold me back. To let the few who promote hate and pain dictate how I live.  There are more people in the world who choose loving kindness. I hold faith in the beauty and compassion of the human race. I believe in the grace of humanity. I want my children to hold that grace as well.

I am a nurse and I walk alongside the dying and their loved ones often. They have taught me to embrace life. To live with a whole heart. To not put off what I can do today.

Life is a gift. It is fragile. Follow your dreams. Cherish those around you.

For one day, death will come and take us all.

We do this thing. We open our hearts to the world around us. And the more we do that, the more we allow ourselves to love, the more we are bound to find ourselves one day.” Stuart McLean

NOTE TO SELF

I chose the word AGLOW a few years ago to describe who I would like to be.

AGLOW in all capacities. To be aware and give respect to all the thoughts and emotions regardless of the happiness, joy, sorrow, or frustration that they may hold. To be grateful for all of life’s experiences; good or bad. To embrace the moment and the sentiment(s) that it encompasses whole heartedly. To be curious and explore for a deeper meaning. For without embracing the experience fully, how can I learn and grow from it?

To radiate with a whole heart at all times.

No, I will not be successful and I will become unconscious often. I will stumble and even fall. But I will continually ask myself, how aglow are you? Its my trigger to come back to self and be grateful for all life’s’ experiences.

To embrace the now and be AGLOW. To illuminate with love and gratitude.

The following was what I wrote to myself at a time when I needed a boost. When life seemed hard and I was not at my best. I thought a little letter to self  would help in the healing. It did.

I love myself.

I love my spirit.

I love my mind.

I love my physical form.

I hold deep gratitude for the numerous years of daring opportunities.

THANK YOU for the intellectual, emotional and spiritual power to create everlasting relationships, a meaningful career and the ability to explore the world.

I have born two wonderful boys and continue to nurture them with love and compassion. I have loved unconditionally, created a lasting marriage and a connected community.

This body and spirit have and continue to take me on many adventures. Climb mountains, wade rivers, run, hike, surf, bike, ski powder, dance, row, skinny dip in alpine lakes, chase children, wrestle, love, tickle, walk, jump, meditate, and hug many.

I have and will continue to allow the space to be vulnerable, be strong, have courage, think, create, change, forgive, love, grieve, bleed, heal, scream, sing, cry and laugh.

Sure I am soft in some places, saggy in others. Dimply here and wrinkly there. Ache and creak on occasion. Forgetful, angry and frustrated at times. Not always on my best behaviour. I have been hurt and sadly have hurt others.

I still remain grateful for all of me. Each ache, each wrinkle, each grey hair holds a memory of what has been. Life’s inescapable suffering will stretch my spirit. Each time I step out of line, there is space for further growth. My beauty and strength hold the dreams of new adventures yet to be.

I love my body. I love my mind. I love my spirit.

I love my life. I love myself and all that I encompass. For without all of me, I would not be unique. I would not be me.

Press play and listen with your eyes closed. Better yet, dance with your eyes closed. Be inspired. Then sit and write, embracing all your treasures and your flaws with deep gratitude.

“EMBRACE THE GLORIOUS MESS THAT YOU ARE”  Elizabeth Gilbert

 

INTENTIONS

Setting intentions gives one focus. To stay conscious not only to the world around one self, but to be aware of the constant flow of mind chatter that ultimately controls how one lives moment to moment. The average person has 100 billion neurons, or brain cells. Each constantly sending and receiving information. Approximately 49 thoughts per minute. 2940 thoughts per hour. That is a lot of activity to keep track of.

Most of this processing is done subconsciously. There are the activities of daily living that we take for granted. Eating, dressing, walking. Then there is the constant flow of information that society sends us. From the people we interact with at work and play. To the stealth ways in which all forms of media influence our opinions and everyday decisions. Our thoughts and believes are constantly being shaped by external influences.

Those external forces shape our subconscious. The subconscious can become the monkey mind.  The monkey mind hijacks our thought patterns. The thought patterns then too easily create self doubt, fear and isolation.

It takes dedication and determination to even realize that our minds have been hijacked. When the mind races with erratic thoughts, or we find ourselves numb to the realities around us. We must turn our backs to the speed demons of life and take a deep awakening breath.

Tell the monkey mind to SIT DOWN and SHUT UP.

SAY IT OUT LOUD.

Stay conscious and constantly challenge and reality check your own narratives.

Surround yourself with people who are like minded and encourage one other to be the best person they can be.

Limit your media to positive streaming mind feeds.

BREATH.

Be in the moment.

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My intention is to honour my spirit. To let the Spirit embrace, guide and inspire me. To listen to the whispers of my heart. For in the Sacred there is compassion, courage, creativity and love. To listen to my intuition. For it is the universe giving me a gentle nudge.

My intention is to be grounded in love and gratitude. In giving thanks I expand my awareness. It is in love that I find peace and understanding.

My intention is to own the truth with compassion. Honouring myself and the beliefs I hold. To show compassion, love and patience for self and others. To let go of the past sufferings and break the boundaries that jail me within myself. To admit when I have been wrong. To reality check my narratives. To be honest with self and others and not let expectations hold me hostage. To share my love and joy. My sorrow and pain. To encourage others to do the same.

My intention is be mindful and surrender to the moment. It is in the now where I will find inspiration and courage.

My intention is to embrace and cherish those who seek my attention. To be the person I want my children to be. To stimulate growth and imagination. Curiosity and adventure. To guide and nurture all and everything with love and compassion.

My intention is to truly listen. For opening my heart to others allows the space for them to listen to their own melody.

My intention is to respect Mother Nature and all that She nurtures. For She supports our wild, weird and wonderful journey called life. It is in Her diversity that we find inspiration and understanding.

My intention to to seek solitude daily. To care for others I must first show compassion for self.

My intention is to be curious and live a life of adventure. To stay open and attentive to all of life’s beauty and wonder. Be vulnerable. To explore my inner self as well as the mysteries of the world around me.

 

Remember that intention is how we send guidance to our own higher self. Thoughts and patterns dictate who we are and how we act. Individually and collectively. Change the thoughts – the patterns will shift. We become what we desire.

BE AWARE

BE MINDFUL

NURTURE YOUR ESSENCE and YOU SHALL GROW AND BE STRONG

ILLUMINATING LOVE AND GRATITUDE 

 

 

 

 

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AGLOW

I have begun this blog to honour the spirit within.  To stay curious and ever changing, allowing space for vulnerability.  I will share my reflections on the moments of everyday as well as the grandness of adventure. Searching for meaning and growth in all life experiences.  I hope to dream & believe more. To love and live with a whole heart & nurture my joy.  While inspiring others to do the same.

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